A brief status report

I'm in the 18th day of self-quarantine (as a safety measure), yet it feels I've been practising for this most of my life. It helps to think of it playfully, as astronaut training or something similar. So I'm relatively okay, just reading, hanging out online and binge-watching some of those darn Chinese cartoons, young troublemakers are into so much these days. I find tea to be a good supplement for mere tap water, so I'm drinking about a gallon of it every day.

Gentle

Since I can't afford to buy cigarettes in the current uncertainty, I stopped smoking about two weeks ago, and I'm not planning to pick up that nasty habit ever again.

I decided to give twitter another shot. I was active in the “old days”, around the end of 2017, there were like 20+ active people self-identifying as MAPs on the whole platform, most of whom described themselves as “anti-contacts” and harassment campaigns against the bunch were pretty much the same as these days, but less drama and maybe a bit more raising awareness. I kept up my profile for only a few months, and after that I was on and off the platform, because fighting trolls was never really my jam. I realized, I can put my social skills to a much better use helping MAPs get emotional support and making their every-day online life more bearable, with casual conversations. To see them and treat them as normal as society should in the first place. The community helped me the same way, I always longed for acceptance, and I have so many quirks that most groups just can't deal with them.

Some MAPs tend to define themselves by their differences, and get vocal about excluding others from the larger community, on an ideological basis, while others focus on their shared qualities and putting their differences aside, strive to end the stigma for all. There is a very delicate balance to protect, and that cannot be achieved by letting whoever the loudest and angriest choose direction for the community, nor by silencing those, who have concerns. Because of that, I think it's crucial to listen what the others have to say, even if it might be uncomfortable to hear. Not because we might get a chance to change their minds, simply because if everyone stops listening to the fellow MAPs and just burns all bridges with them, people won't have each other's support when they'll need it. I think life is infinitely more bearable if others believe in us, our goodness, our potentials, despite of how we feel, despite of what nonsense we might subscribe to. Sometimes everybody needs others to believe in them, despite their differences.

So I felt like giving twitter another shot, because frankly... I'm bored, and hungry for attention, and I still want to do my own gig. Which is to just be casual and make the days of allies and MAPs a little brighter. I've been notified, that the notorious Amos Yee used this username not long ago, in some dark corners of the internet, but I really don't care. If people can't bother to see the difference, they can just block me, as I will block anyone who tries to harass me or those I'm there to support.